Autumn days that make you feel sad

[sun_set_bravely]

I am convinced that my life would be considerably improved if I could wake up naturally every morning, the daylight slowly bringing me out of sleep and into the day. Maybe I'd turn on some music while I drowsed awake like I did this morning, maybe I'd just listen to the birds and the traffic ocean outside.

Because it's Columbus Day but we have several meetings today as well, my office is working in shifts. I get the noon-5 shift. I have a lot of work to do, but it will seem easier with this kind of day's beginning.

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It is cool and bright outside. The trees' leaves are turning brown around the edges; the left tree always goes first, and the right one follows. It will be hard for me to think of anything else during this season that he loves so much. I learned to love autumn from him.

The ever-present "They" say that it takes twice the length of the relationship to get over it. In that case, I should be feeling just fine in 2010.

Comments

[eleanor.livejournal.com]

On a strictly practical level, I need to point out that there exist alarm clocks that play a gentle sound that gradually gets louder, while at the same time emitting a gentle light that gradually gets brighter. It's a Sharper Image/Brookstone type of item.

[sun-set-bravely.livejournal.com]

I saw one of those in SkyMall magazine recently. I'm intrigued by the idea of a small sunrise happening on my bedside table, just to wake me up.

[eleanor.livejournal.com]

I once had an opportunity to use one, when I was staying with a friend who had one in her guest room, and it was pretty swell.

[gurdonark.livejournal.com]

Whoever "they" is did not calibrate for the fact that each person is different.

[schpahky.livejournal.com]

"They" are wrong. I remember hearing that theory in college and feeling like a freak for taking a year to get over a ten-day relationship. On the other side, I got over a 15-month relationship in just a few months - it had, for me, run its course.

You know already the practice of being gentle with yourself. If you keep that up, let yourself grieve as needed, accept the gifts he has left with you (such as appreciating autumn) you will find, when it is time, that your life is entirely yours again. It is yours now, of course. But your arms are still opened very wide. You're doing just fine.

Keep writing.

Are we doing nonfiction NaNoWriMo? I can't guarantee 50,000 words but I'm willing to take a swing at it with you.

[sun-set-bravely.livejournal.com]

I'm down for the nonfiction, whether we make it to 50,000 words or not. What do you think about creating a community, in case anyone else wants to join us? I have a few LJ codes running around and would be happy to put it up.

[schpahky.livejournal.com]

Let's do it!

I have a code too, but I'm in no position to moderate anything right now. Still, I'm right there with you. It might give my LJ a shape for a while, which could only be good. And it would be a great way to mine memories and dreams and at least get them down on paper.

[poetbear.livejournal.com]

"They" are wrong.
Boy, howdy!
so far, i've had at least three relationships
that i'll never get over.
nor do i want to get over them.
what i want is to:
remember them fondly
listen to the lessons they taught me
hear the laughter
be at ease with them/myself
"I am convinced that my life would be considerably improved if I could wake up naturally every morning, the daylight slowly bringing me out of sleep and into the day."
that seems to be the way we were meant to awake,
or alternately,
to attend to a squalling child in the other room
at 2:00 am.
=^_~=paul