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sun_set_bravelyToday, my apartment building is having its first ever stoop sale. Since I have so recently streamlined my belongings and thrown out or given away everything I wanted to, I have nothing to contribute to the sale. But my roommate has a big bookshelf and an old couch, and so I feel like I should make my way down there to at least sit on the stoop and provide moral support. I learned recently that D. is gone from next door. Both women that lived in that apartment for a few years have now gone; it's on to its second generation of tenants. I was fond of the first generation. But perhaps this is my opportunity to meet and get to know the new tenants.
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Last night I dreamed about a beautiful baby boy. He was about three years old. I spent much of the dream thinking that he was dead, so when I finally found him and his six year old brother, I was ecstatic, and I took him into my arms and held him close. It felt so good to hold a little person that way. His head rested in the soft spot between my shoulder and my neck, and my arms acted as a perfect couch for him.
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My sister left a message for me last night that said, "Hey there, I have something to tell you. Call me back." She left two messages like that, actually. I know my sister -- the tone of her voice wasn't "I've got a funny joke", it was "I've got something big to tell you." Maybe it's because it was late, and I was in the middle of a knock-down editing session, but my stomach turned and my head spun. "She's getting married," I thought. No no no no no no no ... I called her back, and in the thirty seconds before I heard her voice, my world turned upside down. She's four years younger than me, she's still in college, surely she wouldn't!, I thought she had different views on marriage....
And then she answered the phone, and her news was that she got a puppy! A little seven week old German Shepherd/Boxer mix. I can't wait to meet her!
When I got off the phone, I went back to my visceral FEAR reaction when I thought she had marriage news for me. What happened? Why would I think that? And why did it turn me over 180 degrees like that? My outer circle of friends are getting married, sure. That's to be expected. But when I thought it was my sister, I Freaked Out.
You should have seen me when the Girls and I were discussing a pre-ceremony scene in the script. My eyes bugged out and my heart raced with nausea, and R. looked over at me and laughed -- "You are freaking out!" I replied, "I can't write this scene. Somebody else do it." and I shoved it over in H.'s direction.
To be sure, I have issues with marriage.
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I think that if I brush my teeth and throw my hair up in a mini ponytail, I can go downstairs without showering.
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Last night I dreamed about a beautiful baby boy. He was about three years old. I spent much of the dream thinking that he was dead, so when I finally found him and his six year old brother, I was ecstatic, and I took him into my arms and held him close. It felt so good to hold a little person that way. His head rested in the soft spot between my shoulder and my neck, and my arms acted as a perfect couch for him.
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My sister left a message for me last night that said, "Hey there, I have something to tell you. Call me back." She left two messages like that, actually. I know my sister -- the tone of her voice wasn't "I've got a funny joke", it was "I've got something big to tell you." Maybe it's because it was late, and I was in the middle of a knock-down editing session, but my stomach turned and my head spun. "She's getting married," I thought. No no no no no no no ... I called her back, and in the thirty seconds before I heard her voice, my world turned upside down. She's four years younger than me, she's still in college, surely she wouldn't!, I thought she had different views on marriage....
And then she answered the phone, and her news was that she got a puppy! A little seven week old German Shepherd/Boxer mix. I can't wait to meet her!
When I got off the phone, I went back to my visceral FEAR reaction when I thought she had marriage news for me. What happened? Why would I think that? And why did it turn me over 180 degrees like that? My outer circle of friends are getting married, sure. That's to be expected. But when I thought it was my sister, I Freaked Out.
You should have seen me when the Girls and I were discussing a pre-ceremony scene in the script. My eyes bugged out and my heart raced with nausea, and R. looked over at me and laughed -- "You are freaking out!" I replied, "I can't write this scene. Somebody else do it." and I shoved it over in H.'s direction.
To be sure, I have issues with marriage.
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I think that if I brush my teeth and throw my hair up in a mini ponytail, I can go downstairs without showering.
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Date: 2003-09-20 09:18 am (UTC)But that puppy -- I need to see pictures.
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Date: 2003-09-22 06:13 am (UTC)I'm trying to post a picture here, but am having a hard time getting it to work. I'll keep trying, because she is adorable!
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Date: 2003-09-22 06:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-09-20 10:43 am (UTC)i believe in it...and hopefully one day.. one day, far far away..