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sun_set_bravelyI've rested all weekend, trying to get better. Thinking about returning to work tomorrow doesn't help.
Today I fell into the TV-watching part of my sickness. I watched "Mr. Mom", which I haven't seen for at least ten years, and which I grew up watching. I wasn't ready to commit to "Father of the Bride," so I'm flipping through the channels. I found Dame Judi Dench as M in "GoldenEye" seated firmly in a plush leather chair, looking Bond straight in the eye and saying, "If you don't think I have the balls to send a man out to die, your instincts are dead wrong."
And WHAM! I saw the thing that I want so much: Power. Graceful, elegant power. I'm not only talking about M's power over Bond. I'm talking about Judi Dench's power as a woman, as a 69-year-old actress who consistently plays intelligent, independent, smart, powerful women. And most importantly, she (the actress) seems so comfortable with her power. It suits her well; she doesn't shirk the attention and responsibility that accompanies power.
This is a new definition for an old instinct I've always had, one that has revealed itself in other ways. I want to lead. I want to have clout. I want to make a difference, in my life and in the lives of others. I want to help more women find the same authority, in their own style and for their own voices.
My work with Woodhull will help me get closer to my goal, as will my time with the Tea Girls (both personal and professional). But sometimes, it seems like there is so much work to be done, and so little time. I'm impatient to have it now.
Today I fell into the TV-watching part of my sickness. I watched "Mr. Mom", which I haven't seen for at least ten years, and which I grew up watching. I wasn't ready to commit to "Father of the Bride," so I'm flipping through the channels. I found Dame Judi Dench as M in "GoldenEye" seated firmly in a plush leather chair, looking Bond straight in the eye and saying, "If you don't think I have the balls to send a man out to die, your instincts are dead wrong."
And WHAM! I saw the thing that I want so much: Power. Graceful, elegant power. I'm not only talking about M's power over Bond. I'm talking about Judi Dench's power as a woman, as a 69-year-old actress who consistently plays intelligent, independent, smart, powerful women. And most importantly, she (the actress) seems so comfortable with her power. It suits her well; she doesn't shirk the attention and responsibility that accompanies power.
This is a new definition for an old instinct I've always had, one that has revealed itself in other ways. I want to lead. I want to have clout. I want to make a difference, in my life and in the lives of others. I want to help more women find the same authority, in their own style and for their own voices.
My work with Woodhull will help me get closer to my goal, as will my time with the Tea Girls (both personal and professional). But sometimes, it seems like there is so much work to be done, and so little time. I'm impatient to have it now.
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Date: 2003-02-10 01:14 am (UTC)i really, really meant to send you a bottle of robitussin after i stole yours...i felt bad...well, then i felt better because of it..
get what im saying?
my bad..maybe theres still time.
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Date: 2003-02-10 06:20 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-02-10 10:10 am (UTC)but i felt bad for springing that trade out of nowhere..it was a bit selfish....
though nachos do sound good right now....