All "Buffy," All The Time

[sun_set_bravely]

Besides walking the dogs this morning and returning one of them to his home, today, I haven't moved more than 20 feet from my bed and the somehow-non-stop "Buffy" episodes being projected on the wall of my bedroom. (Buying the full series box set was a dubious choice...) I'm not even sick. Just lethargic, with a day job under control, a roommate across the country, and in-between-creative projects-aimlessness. I haven't showered, I'm a little sweaty, and there's a cool spring breeze coming through the window and making me sneeze.

I feel good, but also a little anxious. I have such a hard time letting myself float through a day, without Doing Something. I've fought this hyper-productivity-urge for years now, at least since college. There are few precious times when I'm able to release and relax without feeling like a slacker. Maybe this is another drawback to freelance work -- it gives logical support to the idea that no moment should be wasted.

Hey!! Even in this post, I'm beating up on myself! It must stop! Release! Release! *drums fingers on forehead*

*goes to rummage through fridge*

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/lindalee_/]

i know what you mean. so hard to sit still and just be.

[curmudgeon.livejournal.com]

You have to trust that the down time is just as valuable as the writing time. I just went through the 2 weeks of 4 deadlines, and I NEEDED a week with nothing pressing, because now I have 4 more deadlines between now and May 24.

[missprune.livejournal.com]

It is hard for me as well, to allow myself a totally lazy day. Maybe we don't really enjoy such a day as much as we think we ought to!

[gurdonark.livejournal.com]

I used a lot of down time yesterday to read a novel I had not gotten to before--it feels like "doing something", but it's pure fun.

[(Anonymous)]

wow I have the opposite problem. Id say more but I am a slacker.